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Monstrous Bird of Qin, Ou Ki
He'd... answered. A surprise, to be sure, but a welcome one. And he'd answered as expected... brutally honest, cutting deeply. That was good. He'd opened up to him--just a little--precisely because the man before him cared nothing for him, his feelings, or... really, anything beyond not being a burden or nuisance to the team, he suspected. He needed to hear a harsh truth, not the sugarcoated version a loved one, such as Karine, would offer.
Supportive stuff like that had its place, but sometimes ya had to tear something down completely and rebuild it.
For a long while, Totoma was silent, his arms crossed and his gaze wandering to and fro. Try as he might, he couldn't quite formulate a response. Not now, at least.
Finally, he broke his silence: "Thank you. You've given me food for thought, but... like any food, it will have to digest a bit before it can offer any nourishment."
In other words, he wanted to think on it for a while. Get some other opinions. Karine, definitely, but perhaps some of the others.
"You may think my quick turnaround is weird, and... it is. I think it's because I realized, after I said that, that I'd been doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results," said Totoma. "Insanity."
It stung. He'd essentially just wasted a year. Or more, if one considered that his problems started during his first trip to Vacado. His mother must have known what would happen, so why had she taken him there?
Another thing to think about.