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Cthulhu_of_R'lyeh
In the end, it was over swiftly. There was no sound. No surging strength that Ishtar felt when she threw wide the gates and took what had been concealed from her. Simply a warmth, and the feeling of being now made whole ... and how bittersweet a thing that was.
When she bothered to open her eyes then, Ishtar found that the monochrome of the mental landscape had fallen away; the purpose of its existence served, and the Lookout -- along with those who had remained behind -- were all that remained. Including Zurvan, and despite having already offered the bitter truth of things it seemed there was more yet for him to say.
And in hearing what he had to say, Ishtar found herself ... indifferent.
The damage was done, after all. She had been manipulated. Nothing said, or offered from this point would change that. Nor did expressing that it was for her to decide how to proceed, help. She knew that. Could feel it even now, as her 'destiny' coursed through her; no longer sealed and stymying. The choice was hers, and those would have once held sway were left nothing but the option to accept it. Yet the choice itself, was not much of one was it ...
A sardonic chuckle escaped Ishtar's lips, when she finally saw fit to respond.
"Some choice I have before me, hm ? To turn my back, and prove myself no better than the Gods I so despise ... or continue on this path that was never truly mine, by choice." The golden-eyed Oni stated, more to herself than for the benefit of anyone, before looking over at Zurvan. "I suppose however, that makes all the difference ... knowing."
A moment passed in silence then, Ishtar staring at her father as she seemed to consider something, before her shoulders slumped and the silence was broken with a sigh. "And try as I might, I see no point of blaming you." The glowing-horn Oni, stated, making her decision in that regard known.
"Doing so does not change what is, nor does it assist what needs to come." Though there was another reason why, she could not find it within herself to hold this misstep against Zurvan.
"You were also, at the least ... a father to me, when I had no one else. " Ishtar added, "and I value that, more than thoughts of what could have been." All she had to say now offered, an awkward silence settled as the Oni shifted uncomfortably, only for her to once again be the one to break it.
"So ... is there anything else you might wish to discuss ?"