Originally Posted by
Lord Falcon
Before Leaving the Lookout
Asha'rah was not at peace. It wasn't the seething anger that had come close to overwhelming her when Chrona had kidnapped Erosa. But the calm waves of her soul that afforded her the peace to meditate were calm no longer. They crashed upon the shores of her mind, confused anguish rumbling through her like peals of thunder. She hurt, and she could find no answer.
Away from the room where she had argued just a few hours ago with Ishtar, atop the lookout and behind an outcropping, Asha'rah sat in her manifested form. Breathing deep helped a little, though her breath shuddered. Finding her center helped a little, though it remained buffeted by her emotional state. But it was not enough. So she summoned Tiangou, just a little, the dragon's body occupying a space no larger than a lion. The argument was done for the moment, but Asha'rah would not risk badmouthing Ishtar before their peers. But she wished comfort, which Tiangou was always willing to provide. She leaned her head against the dragon's own, finding in her old friend a rock to lean upon till the aching storm within her resided. Tiangou for her part had wrapped her body around Asha'rah, using her bulk as a comforting blanket to shelter her master in her moment of weakness.
The great efforts spent to bring Ishtar back from the dead. Those months they had shared travelling to Illargi. Reuniting Ishtar with Sekhmet, one last time. All the battles they had fought together, all the fields of battle they had bled together on. All discarded in a single argument...or had Ishtar simply been slowly coming to a boil for a long time? It had felt like a spur of the moment revelation, but had that merely been the spark? She could feel the emotion rolling off Ishtar, and whatever regard Ishtar had once had for Asha'rah had apparently evaporated into nothing. All over a charge of hypocrisy, a charge upon which Asha'rah would have readily admitted had she been convinced. But she had not been convinced, based as the charge seemed to be (to her, at least) on an incomplete understanding of her own values. Or an incomplete understanding of hypocrisy. And now Ishtar's wrath felt ripe to attempt extermination upon Asha'rah. No time given for pondering, no period of self-reflection - a friendship ended just like that.
If, in the fullness of time, Asha'rah had come to stand in the way of what Ishtar desired, Asha'rah could have accepted a battle to the death as the course of things when convictions collided. But not like this. Not like this. Ishtar despised Asha'rah on a personal level, not just a philosophical one, and the god could not reconcile the haste to such a judgment of a friend from Ishtar with the Ishtar Asha'rah knew.
...No, that was a lie. She just didn't want to. So she sat with her dragon, her chest tightening with pain and confusion, and cried for a friend lost.