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    I'm pleased things didn't escalate, which is the reason why I like to go to the teacher. That kind of 'man-child looking to prove themselves to themselves and the rest of the world' is often unpredictable.
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    "...dropping an orca whale made of fire on your enemies is a pretty strong opening move." - Nik Hasta

    "[Kent] Nelson was nearly invariably presented as the guy who, barring the Spectre, made everyone else generally gasp and go "Doctor Fate don't shiv, he balls nasty.", even Superman." - Pendaran

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    Quote Originally Posted by master of read View Post
    you know what? i'm gonna be real right now. just really real.




    i'm tired. i am drained of all strength in my soul because shit has been hard for me the last few months.

    my uncle died. he died suddenly and without warning. and my mom had to guilt trip my aunt to go spend some time with my other aunt to help her grieve.

    i found out my aunt and cousin are scum bags and i have to pretend to be nice to them because that's what's expected of me.

    my book, which i spent the better part of 3 years working on, hasn't sold a single copy in over 8 months, because people who said they'd read it haven't touched it because "they don't read books".

    i got driven off twitter because i tried to do something nice for a friend of mine.

    my teeth are so bad now, i wake up with a mouthfull of blood daily and spitting out pieces of teeth for god knows how long. but i can't get them fixed because we don't have the money.

    none of my IRL friends have seen me in over a year because they are too busy with their own families to check how i'm doing.

    in fact, one of my front teeth popped off as i was eating chicken and i damn near choked on it.

    but i still check in with my best friend to see if he's doing ok because he's a recovering alchohalic and he's still dealing with what his ex's husband did to his kids. i'm literally having to keep him and a lot of other people up because i'm a nice guy and whatever problems i have are nothing compared to theirs.

    and it seems like every time i open my eyes, i'm doing something to make something angry, like everything i do is a burden to someone else.

    and today was just the cherry on top of this emotional sundae, i can't even do a little small thing to make myself the least bit happy.

    so once again, i had to fight the overwhelming urge to walk into my mom's room, find her .45, go into the garage and end it all because i don't seem to matter anymore.

    so that's the reason. when i say "i'm gone", i'm mean i'm staying off my computer and the internet because it's not helping. i'm going away from the forum for a while. not sure when i'll be back or even if i'll be back. i just know that i'm a wreck and i need to get back to my happiness.

    once i hit post, i'm closing the messager, shutting off my computer, turning off the lights and probably cry myself to sleep because i'm so damn screwed up and i'm so damn tired.

    good night.
    MoR, Iím also going to be really real.

    From everything Iíve ever know about you over many, many years, youíre a really great person. Thatís for real. Thereís a lot of great people here and, in my ever-increasing cynicism about the state of humanity, thats a rarity and one that I always find surprising and refreshing.

    Whenever Iíve been in a dark place (and heaven knows thereís been a lot of those over the past couple of years) Iíve come to this place for sanctuary and support. And Iíve found it. In this weird, quirky, little place full of people arguing for the nth time about Thorís speed or whether Goku is a universe-buster or (heaven forfend) whether Bane and Killer Croc together could beat Lizard in a fight, there is an incredible community of people who care about each other. I know that the messages of support and good wishes that Iíve had from the people here, including your good self, have been a blessing to me. Youíve given that support to others, so please know that we all reflect it right back at you.

    Let it be a blessing to you too, and, if you need it to be, a literal lifesaver as well.

    Please, please, please do not rob the world of the great person that you are.

    Life has dealt you a shitty hand. Thereís no question about that. But please do stay in the game. And if you need to lean on one or more of us to lend you the emotional ante to do so, then please... lean away, my friend. We got your stake covered.

    Sometimes when youíre in a dark place, all it takes is the wrong thing said at the wrong time to completely kick your feet out from under you. But from what I know of the people here, nothing that may or may not have been said was intended with malice.

    But itís really, really difficult to read intent into written words. We lack the context of facial expression or tone of voice. Authors struggle with this all the time, so we shouldnít be surprised that others who donít earn their living from their skills as wordsmiths struggle likewise. Itís one of the many, many reasons why I hate social media - people there seem to have no filter and are often quite prepared to be rude and hurtful, but even when theyíre not trying to be, it can still happen through a complete misunderstanding of intent.

    Nevertheless, trust me when I say that you are loved here. If you need to come here to sound off at us, Iím sure I speak for most people when I say that weíre more than happy to be your sounding board and at least some of your support network.

    I get that youíre hurting. I get that it feels like youíve got nothing to live for. But you have. Donít take Plan Z. Itís not a solution, and it will only cause more hurt. Iím very proud to say that my wife is a Samaritan - sheís had to emotionally hold peopleís hands while theyíve gone through that process, and itís always such a distressing waste. More often, sheís also been there to give someone the strength to change their own mind and go on. Some hills you canít climb from starting halfway up, but you do need solid ground to push off from at the bottom.

    I donít know what the equivalent organisation to the Samaritans would be in your part of the world, but Iím certain there is one. Call them. Speak to someone, even if itís just to take the raw edge off until you can get some more substantial help.

    I will reiterate again that Plan Z is not a solution. I knew someone from my school (the cousin of a good friend) who, after weíd left, decided he couldnít face any more but also couldnít ask for help. He felt his only outlet was Plan Z, so he went to a petrol station, doused himself in petrol and set himself on fire. The last thing the horrified bystanders heard from him was ďOh God. What have I done?!Ē

    Donít be that person. Seek the help you need, and if we can be even a part of your climb back to a better place, we will all be delighted to do so. Because you matter to us, and to many other people in your life. Remember that.

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    That's better than anything anyone else has written here, Beadle. By far.

    Well said.
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    "...the Myths Transformed version of the legendarium, in which the Moon is Melkor's attempt to make his own Arda with blackjack and hookers." - Estrecca

    "...dropping an orca whale made of fire on your enemies is a pretty strong opening move." - Nik Hasta

    "[Kent] Nelson was nearly invariably presented as the guy who, barring the Spectre, made everyone else generally gasp and go "Doctor Fate don't shiv, he balls nasty.", even Superman." - Pendaran

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    Quote Originally Posted by master of read View Post
    you know what? i'm gonna be real right now. just really real.




    i'm tired. i am drained of all strength in my soul because shit has been hard for me the last few months.

    my uncle died. he died suddenly and without warning. and my mom had to guilt trip my aunt to go spend some time with my other aunt to help her grieve.

    i found out my aunt and cousin are scum bags and i have to pretend to be nice to them because that's what's expected of me.

    my book, which i spent the better part of 3 years working on, hasn't sold a single copy in over 8 months, because people who said they'd read it haven't touched it because "they don't read books".

    i got driven off twitter because i tried to do something nice for a friend of mine.

    my teeth are so bad now, i wake up with a mouthfull of blood daily and spitting out pieces of teeth for god knows how long. but i can't get them fixed because we don't have the money.

    none of my IRL friends have seen me in over a year because they are too busy with their own families to check how i'm doing.

    in fact, one of my front teeth popped off as i was eating chicken and i damn near choked on it.

    but i still check in with my best friend to see if he's doing ok because he's a recovering alchohalic and he's still dealing with what his ex's husband did to his kids. i'm literally having to keep him and a lot of other people up because i'm a nice guy and whatever problems i have are nothing compared to theirs.

    and it seems like every time i open my eyes, i'm doing something to make something angry, like everything i do is a burden to someone else.

    and today was just the cherry on top of this emotional sundae, i can't even do a little small thing to make myself the least bit happy.

    so once again, i had to fight the overwhelming urge to walk into my mom's room, find her .45, go into the garage and end it all because i don't seem to matter anymore.

    so that's the reason. when i say "i'm gone", i'm mean i'm staying off my computer and the internet because it's not helping. i'm going away from the forum for a while. not sure when i'll be back or even if i'll be back. i just know that i'm a wreck and i need to get back to my happiness.

    once i hit post, i'm closing the messager, shutting off my computer, turning off the lights and probably cry myself to sleep because i'm so damn screwed up and i'm so damn tired.

    good night.
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    I hope MoR is going to be okay and I hope he comes back someday, when he's ready. I wish him well.
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    Damn, saw his post

    Hope he gets through this
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    Quote Originally Posted by master of read View Post
    you know what? i'm gonna be real right now. just really real.




    i'm tired. i am drained of all strength in my soul because shit has been hard for me the last few months.

    my uncle died. he died suddenly and without warning. and my mom had to guilt trip my aunt to go spend some time with my other aunt to help her grieve.

    i found out my aunt and cousin are scum bags and i have to pretend to be nice to them because that's what's expected of me.

    my book, which i spent the better part of 3 years working on, hasn't sold a single copy in over 8 months, because people who said they'd read it haven't touched it because "they don't read books".

    i got driven off twitter because i tried to do something nice for a friend of mine.

    my teeth are so bad now, i wake up with a mouthfull of blood daily and spitting out pieces of teeth for god knows how long. but i can't get them fixed because we don't have the money.

    none of my IRL friends have seen me in over a year because they are too busy with their own families to check how i'm doing.

    in fact, one of my front teeth popped off as i was eating chicken and i damn near choked on it.

    but i still check in with my best friend to see if he's doing ok because he's a recovering alchohalic and he's still dealing with what his ex's husband did to his kids. i'm literally having to keep him and a lot of other people up because i'm a nice guy and whatever problems i have are nothing compared to theirs.

    and it seems like every time i open my eyes, i'm doing something to make something angry, like everything i do is a burden to someone else.

    and today was just the cherry on top of this emotional sundae, i can't even do a little small thing to make myself the least bit happy.

    so once again, i had to fight the overwhelming urge to walk into my mom's room, find her .45, go into the garage and end it all because i don't seem to matter anymore.

    so that's the reason. when i say "i'm gone", i'm mean i'm staying off my computer and the internet because it's not helping. i'm going away from the forum for a while. not sure when i'll be back or even if i'll be back. i just know that i'm a wreck and i need to get back to my happiness.

    once i hit post, i'm closing the messager, shutting off my computer, turning off the lights and probably cry myself to sleep because i'm so damn screwed up and i'm so damn tired.

    good night.
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    Damn sinus infection.

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    Take care, MoR. No matter what, please remember that we’re here to talk to or simply listen if you need us.
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    Man, Capcom just out here making bizarre PR moves.
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    The Power Rangers Comic just recently revealed what exactly happened to Rita in her dumpster. Suffice to say, dark AF sums it up.

    spoilers:

    Rita was forced to live through the lives of her numerous victims while in the dumpster. She would live a love-filled life only for her own self to attack the planet she was on, kill her and then repeat the process. And Rita, as it turns out, has over four million victims to her name and went through this process for 10,000 years while an AI governed the whole thing. Finster, Squatt, Babboo and Goldar each went through their own 're-educations' but Rita's is what stuck out to me.

    Like, Jesus, Zordon what the s-t?
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    Superman smashes the Clan is so good

    Quote Originally Posted by Nik Hasta View Post
    Man, Capcom just out here making bizarre PR moves.
    what they do?

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    Quote Originally Posted by Guy1 View Post
    The Power Rangers Comic just recently revealed what exactly happened to Rita in her dumpster. Suffice to say, dark AF sums it up.

    spoilers:

    Rita was forced to live through the lives of her numerous victims while in the dumpster. She would live a love-filled life only for her own self to attack the planet she was on, kill her and then repeat the process. And Rita, as it turns out, has over four million victims to her name and went through this process for 10,000 years while an AI governed the whole thing. Finster, Squatt, Babboo and Goldar each went through their own 're-educations' but Rita's is what stuck out to me.

    Like, Jesus, Zordon what the s-t?
    end of spoilers
    I mean, spoilers:
    if she's really got 4 million victims to her name and if displayed the same general glee as she usually does whenever she doesn anything evil then I'd say she's kinda earned it.

    Obviously it wasn't effective at all in re-educating her. But still. 4 million is a lot of lives.
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    Looking good as all damn.

    I mean, if the spoilers I've heard about the ending are ture I'm a little less interested than I usually would be. Oh well, the movie is only canon to the anime anyway.

    And again, it does look fun. Also, Johnny Yong Bosch!
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    Quote Originally Posted by Dark Soul # 7 View Post
    I mean, spoilers:
    if she's really got 4 million victims to her name and if displayed the same general glee as she usually does whenever she doesn anything evil then I'd say she's kinda earned it.

    Obviously it wasn't effective at all in re-educating her. But still. 4 million is a lot of lives.
    end of spoilers
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    Oh no kidding but it still seemed completely out of left field for Zordon to me. It just seems like something a PO'ed Doctor would do. Maybe it's just me.

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