Completely agree, I love this.No I have to disagree actually. I think it makes perfect sense for Ororo to hesitate in fully stepping into her Godhood, if not even more so because of Jean. She watched her best friend, someone she loved dearly and knew to be a wonderful person and possibly the closest thing to family she has known outside of Achmed, Ainet, and T’challa since her parents died turn into a world devouring, insatiable cosmic entity when imbued with the powers of a God. Dying multiple times because of it, to the great pain of all who loved her. Uncanny #147 being the perfect example of her ascending to this higher plane of being only to let the fear of becoming like Jean and hurting her friends give her the strength to rein it in and suppress infinite power. I even believe that if it weren’t for Jean and how traumatic that relationship has been for her, she probably would’ve breached this threshold a lot sooner than now. Just my thoughts though.
Another reason being Control. Control has been a monumental theme throughout Ororo’s life. Loss of control in the tragedy of losing her parents at 5 years old. No control over her surroundings imploding around her leading to a debilitating case of claustrophobia. Maintaining constant control over her emotions to stabilize the surrounding weather and not harm those around her. A factor that has had such an affect on her personality as to make people who aren’t close to her view her as being slightly distant and aloof, when really she is just permanently guarded for their sake. No control over the loss of her powers and her identity due to her severed connection from the Earth. The pain of having no control over the fact that your marriage was unilaterally ended, and even more so not being able to control the fact that you still love him regardless. I don’t see it being that strange that taking the blind leap of faith into this new echelon of being would be scary for Ororo, not knowing if she will lose control of her agency, her powers, or her life if she does. I think it’s perfectly reasonable, however I do think it’s coming to a point where she won’t have a choice anymore. She will have to leap into that great unknown probably to save her love, T’challa or to protect Wakanda from danger but as we all know, she will soar.