I mean you know, I hate to same more but it's all just really frustrating in general, what's with this continual crazy quasi dictatorship we have? why is it so hard to differentiate and tell the difference between the communists, liberals and fascists? I feel and suspect that it's mostly the upperclasses basically playing sides and attempting to manipulate people and if they end up causing a war down below with the poor, disenfranchised or working classes, what does it matter to them? I mean, why is everyone so cliquey and exclusionary these days? why does everything suddenly seem to only remotely revolve around work, employment and your job? what happened to other facets or aspects of life. I have relatively young still and haven't been able to decide on a serious career, and you know, this has been a really difficult and complicated process but instead, you're supposed to just treat your work life like a pin-ball machine and you're supposed to just get flung around the tabletop without much forethought and just constantly pick at random what you'll do, and it's supposed to somehow be reality, fun, and just a part of life. Well, it's just typical bourgeois politics, oppression and seemingly a desperate attempt by all these seemingly disparaging groups who are seemingly at odds with each other, and are extreme but yet resoundingly and simultaneously in support of laissez faire economics and capitalism coincidentally and suspiciously? I have a lot of artistic aspirations as well, what about those? so if I just take a leap, get into the aforementioned and unavoidable pitfall of student debt, and pick random majors despite all the possible conundrums and rectifiable odd or unexpected variables to take into consideration, everything will just turn out, oh wait no, nobody will answer that because we live in a dictatorship apparently okay. Is it a communism dictatorship, a conservative one, what is going on? I am obviously not stupid, I am intelligible enough to deserve a decent answer. So basically you are telling me I have to unquestionably get on the side of this quasi-ponzi liberal scheme wherein I work for corporations that outsource to foreign investors and exploit low wage earning foreign workers, is that it? no? what? WHAT IS IT THEN DAMNIT!?
I mean damn, not lazy or stupid at all and haven't been able to decide on a career, was thrown under the bus and disregarded completely socially whilst receiving all this ill regard and animosity and then I suspect and wonder who the smart one's are in actuality? I had these suspicious feelings that these existing social groups were attempting to drive me out of the city like they did to the Native American's in past history and then I was asked if I have "native american" ancestry at all when no, I am part Japanese a little bit I guess? so I mean, I don't think these people even rightfully deserve their positions either and are unfit to rule. They should just let people like me exist but they have to take away all my freedom as well and attempt make me accept whatever schizophrenic time travelling evil regime that this is.
So, I will just continue to be a political dissent and angry socialist I guess.
*goes back to studying Noam Chomsky*
So here I am, the one unbalanced sum of an otherwise perfectly balanced equation it would seem like and still I wonder, what is going on? so like, was Friedrich Nietzsche right then? are these people proponents of his philosophical work? or was he just again, was he correct? for a long time it seemed like these people were all like Nazis, because they were combining far left (but too far left) ideas with right wing ideas but that fell through too. They're just greedy awful capitalists either way I guess, who support socialist policies when it best serves their own interest.
I guess I will just go back to and keep playing angry anti-establishment rock about all my experiences with this seemingly disparaging discordant and contradictory corrupt socio-political scheme, it's just beyond politics at this point. I wouldn't have cared if they would stop with their damn time machines, past retro stuff, overly repressive social expectations, evil demon headed horrible upper classes.
I have existed on the fringes of society my whole life and I will continue to, working at dive bars full of bikers, strip clubs and living in squats with punks or something and making money playing music or something, who knows.