That's a tricky question.
When you do work for hire at a company like Marvel, part of what you sign up for is the fact that everything you write, and even the characters you create, it's all part of a shared universe that belongs to them, not you. So you know that stories that you create will be undone, and characters you create may be killed. So getting hurt by these events feels a bit like you're being unprofessional.
But so much of how it all went down was pretty painful in the moment. They put 27 kids on a bus and killed them in one page. That's gonna sting, no matter how professional you want to be.
Ultimately, what really hurt the most is how we found out. When we were taken off the book, we knew the new team was planning to shake things up and make things more dangerous. So we knew characters would die.
And so we asked Marvel - just give it to us straight, who was going to die. And we were told - no joke - that we didn't need to worry. Only two of the kids we wrote would die. Icarus, and Tag. That's it. Just two. We were sad for them, but it felt like it wasn't going to be too bad. And we had time to prepare.
And we weren't told anything else. Everything else we found out, we did so by reading the comic when it came out, like everyone else. Except, unlike everyone else, we'd been told everyone but those two characters were safe.
And then, as we paid for the issues like any other fan, we watched as 27 kids blew up on a bus. As Laurie was shot. As Quill (who we put in the book and named in honor of a friend) was shot in the face.
So... which hurt the most? All of it, really. Not because it happened - that's Marvel's right. And Kyle and Yost's right. But because we wanted to be prepared and ended up being completely surprised.