THE EIGHT-LEGGED ANT
As Peter continues to reminisce over his childhood, he remembers a time from first grade when his parents were still alive and he was in a school play. We then get another flashback to Peter’s seven-year-old self. As we deep dive into it, we will learn a lot about (1) what Spider-Man really is and (2) about how Peter sees Spider-Man.
We learn that Peter was once in a school play called “Soldier Ants and Ladybugs”. He was one of the ants in the play, and was apparently looking forward to being in it for an entire week leading up to the play. They also apparently let the students come up with their own costumes for the play, since we see a seven-year-old Peter drawing an ant costume and getting Aunt May to make it. As I’m sure it’s obvious by the panel, Peter’s costume resembles more of a spider than an ant, since it has eight legs instead of six. It’s also red and blue, and would clearly come to eventually resemble his Spider-Man suit. In a way, this is the first “Spider-Man” costume Peter ever wore.
There are two meta-jokes in here that crack me up. The first is how Peter apparently insisted his costume should have eight legs instead of six because he wanted to be “more than just an ant”. As longtime Spider-Man fans know, Spidey will often jokingly correct people that spiders aren’t insects whenever someone calls him an insect in the comics. To see Peter himself sort-of fall for that misconception is hilarious. The second is Ben jokingly telling Peter’s dad he should only worry if Peter wears it to his senior prom – the irony being that Peter wore his red-and-blue Spider-Man costume under his clothes throughout his entire senior year of high school, and only didn’t wear it to prom because the Lee/Ditko run didn’t show one (prom was not a major high school tradition until after the 1960’s). Still, Peter did wear it under his clothes at his graduation and at several college dances, and continues to wear it under his clothes as a grown man. (Honestly, considering the sliding timescale nature of 616 and the fact we know there are more stories that happened in high school thanks to stuff like Untold Tales, Comics Peter probably wore his Spider-Man suit to prom too.)
The eight-legged ant costume itself actually symbolizes several things:
1. It’s a metaphor for Peter being an outcast and for his awkwardness as a kid – eight-legged ants to our knowledge don’t exist, and such an ant would be a mutation and aberration from the “norm”.
2. It’s a foreshadow of who and what he would eventually become.
3. Peter says he wanted to be “more than just an ant” and seems to view being “just an ant” as a bad thing.
Regarding that last point, not wanting to be associated with an ant is arguably more common than we might think. I remember when Ant-Man came out in 2015, some thought the name “Ant-Man” wasn’t cool enough – so much that the movie itself threw in a joke over whether or not “it’s too late to change the name”. Others were confused why “Spider-Man” was seen as a cool name but “Ant-Man” wasn’t. Personally, I thought the double standard there was obvious: ants are known for their tiny size and insignificance, while spiders are not (helps that many species of spiders are quite big). If you say the word “spider” to a random person, first thing that might pop in their mind besides Spider-Man would probably be a spider’s webs, or the way it crawls and bites, or some of a spider’s creepy physical characteristics like their high number of legs and eyes. If you say “ant” to a random person, first thing they’ll probably think about is the tiny size of the ant. People may hate and fear spiders, but they’ll literally look down on ants. That is if they bother to look down at them in the first place. Usually ants are just ignored and not given any thought before they are stepped on and squashed like a bug (hence the expression). Do you remember the last time you accidentally stepped on an ant while you were walking? Me neither.
In other words, ants are a lot like Peter before he got his powers: tiny, powerless, ignored and stepped on by the bigger guys and the bullies. Essentially, Peter wanting to be “more than just an ant” is a sign that Peter was always looking for an escape from his life and from what he was seen as by society. That escape is, of course, what Spider-Man ended up being.
At the same time, it’s important to note that Peter didn’t clue in that his costume looked more like a spider. Nor was it the intent. The messiness of the costume shows that Peter wanted to be “more than just an ant” – AKA more than what he was as at the time – but he still had no idea what he actually wanted to be. It’s the opposite of the Peter from Amazing Fantasy #15, who had a very specific idea of the kind of person he wanted to be after he made his costume and started doing public appearances.
In the next panels we finally see Peter on stage in full costume, with his parents and aunt and uncle watching from the house. Peter apparently had only one line in the play, which he apparently practiced for the whole week and couldn’t wait to deliver it… only for him to experience stage fright and go silent. Far cry from the Spider-Man who would come to quip nonstop off the top of his head, isn’t it? Arguably nothing demonstrates better how much Spider-Man is about growth than if we compare Peter in the play here with what we know he’ll be like when he is older.
Jenkins in these flashbacks explicitly draws attention to an idea that has been subtext in comics since AF#15. That idea is that Peter to a certain extent views Spider-Man as a performance he gives to the world watching. More specifically, he views it as a performance of his best self, or of what he wishes and imagines his “best self” to be.
Keeping this in mind, certain things about the “Spider-Man persona” start to make sense. For example, it makes sense why Peter picked red and blue as the colors for his costume – both for his “ant” costume as a kid, but also for his superhero suit. Red and blue are primary colors, which stick out more than other colors. The colors of the costume thus reflect Peter’s deep desire to be seen and acknowledged by the world, and to not be “invisible”. The line of dialogue in the play that he had as a kid, and the quips in the case of his older self, are likewise part of the persona and image he wishes to project. It also explains why one of Peter’s first instincts when he first got his powers in AF#15 was to be a television performer.
It’s clear that what Peter envisions to be his “best self” and the image he wishes to project and to captivate the world with has certain specific traits. They are the traits of a person that is confident, entertaining, and at least somewhat talkative – all of those being traits that (at the time) he struggled to emulate and embody at school and in daily life.