Carol seems like the kind of person who is adept at juggling many hats but isn't quite sure what she gets out of it all, especially since there are few stories told from her perspective. Especially with regard to her relationships, I think Carol is very much in love with the idea of Hal Jordan as this cocky, courageous action hero, but has quite a bit less esteem for the reality of a mentally adolescent loser that needs constant babysitting and who idealizes her in a similar way without being able to connect to the real person. This is confusing enough for anyone, but for a supposed "soldier of love" it must be quite a predicament on top of all of her other responsibilities.