Originally Posted by
Star_Jammer
Ugh...I'm in need of "relationship advice". Maybe this isn't the best place for it, but I'm just trying to collect a bunch of viewpoints (personal and impersonal).
My mother passed away recently, and owned a home about 3 hours from where I currently live. The house now belongs to my sister, brother, and myself. I am heavily thinking (read: it's pretty much a "go") of buying them out of their share. It's a really good chance for me to own my own home! It's nothing fancy, and it's kind of small, but it'd be perfect for myself and maybe a roommate. And with the type of loan I've inquired about, I'll actually be able to pay my car off and save a bit of money each month (the car was pricey, it was a splurge...I don't regret it!).
The problem is...I have a "boyfriend". And I put it in quotes because it's a rather weird situation. We haven't been...intimate...in a really long time (6 years? I lost count). We don't kiss, we don't really hug, we've never celebrated any sort of relationship milestone (anniversaries) or holidays (Valentine's)...and while some of these aren't necessary for a relationship to be good, they kind of high-light the fact that our relationship has always been awkward. He's always been kind of closed off and didn't want to share things about himself, and I think I've always resented that. We ended up moving in together, and for a while it's been a convenience for both of us; we split the bills, and going or separate ways would be more difficult financially for both of us.
So...we're basically roommates, with some perks of a relationship...or is that a relationship with a lot of drawbacks? Either way, I concluded some time ago that I would leave him if given the opportunity. I know I've been a shitty person for keeping this up (he's definitely more emotionally invested at this point than I am; I care for him, but I don't love him like that any more), but us "staying together" also probably benefits him more than myself (I make more money, and pay more of the bills)...and I just don't know how to initiate this conversation.
My sister and I have talked about moving to this area (or nearby) for a few years now, and I actually brought it up to my "boyfriend" about me possibly moving, to which his basic response was that he wouldn't move with me (which was sort of a relief at the time). I've mentioned several times that I'd love to move to the aforementioned area (was actually born/raised there), as it's something I've wanted since before I even ever met him (home is where the heart is).
Buying the house isn't anywhere close to finalized yet (still have to be approved for the loan, etc.), and I still have to figure out a job transfer (which is generally easy to do, but still has to be done and find a place to transfer to).
Do I wait to till him till everything about me moving is in motion? Do I risk telling him now, and either a) the move goes through, but the living situation we have is super awkward till I move or b) the move can't go through (no job transfer or loan denied), and we're put in an awkward situation on top of our "necessity" to continue living together?
Again, I know I've played a shitty part in this and at this point I can't change much (if any) of that, so I don't mind any comments in that regard, but I would also like to get some advice as well.