Originally Posted by
MrSandman
Tore apart by mindless beasts. Over and Over and Over.
Cut down by the sword wielding Chrona. Over and Over and Over.
Consumed by Parsics Void. Over and Over and Over and Over.
Every time she awoke at the beginning, the moon above her in the same position, the time unchanged.
Perhaps the most horrifying aspect wasn't the pain, or the hopelessness.....but how Death had slowly lost its impact for her. Fear of Death was a normal aspect of life, one that took those who fought years to harden against. Yet here, in this hell, every death was different yet ended in the same result. Perhaps it had been the a mercy beyond her comprehension at the time....but the two Familiars always did their task in the quickest, least painful way. In a twisted way....she soon started to prefer to be caught by them rather then the hounds.
So it went on...fear gave way reckless determination. Which each new attempt she strived to learn something new. Where the hounds tended to hide, what paths the two familiars took, how to distract them, what she could and couldn't get away with. Though each attempt ended with failure she would only start off again at the start.....and as long as she was caught by the familiars it would be a quick retry.
Like a game.
Hell had become a game.....perhaps in the only way her innocent mind could remain intact and carry her through it.
She would attempt it, learn as much as she could, die and put that information to use in the next attempt. Over and Over, again and again. Yet...her limitations as a child were so....so....
Insurmountable.
Determination was something the child had no short supply off, but with every failure...even one in which she learned something...that block was chipped away. Etrina was weighted down by frustration and hopelessness, the will to live beaten out of her with one failure after the other. Death didn't matter, life didn't matter, every attempt yielded the same result.
Insurmountable.
She turned the corner, her former careful motions lost....walking full speed into a surprised Chrona, sword already drawn. Perhaps there had been a look of pity in the aspects eyes at first....But that was not the memory Etrina had.
She remembered the look of horror the aspect had as the little girl impaled herself on her sword, of her own choice. At the time...she had done so because such a thing had no meaning here. Being caught meant death, no matter how much you struggled or fought. It didn't matter, nothing mattered. Better to have it done quickly so she could try again.
Repetition had eroded all worth from her own life.....and in the reflection of the aspects horrified eyes, she saw the cold dead thing she had become......and the child was once more scared, but for death, but for what she had turned into.
Insurmountable.
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As the primal forces of the cosmos bared down on the two, Asha'rah strode forward and faced them head on. Her words of encouragement still rang in her ears. Now was the time to face face her demons, and right a terrible memory that had plagued her from her youth. She had trained for this, bleed for this.....had died for it, more times then she could ever count. But here.....in the realm of her memory, the edge of the abyss behind them and the end of time in front of them.....
....she was freezing up.
That cold, creeping doom that plagued her memories was slowly wrapping its hands around her heart. Even after everything she had done to prepare...nothing had changed. She was just an ant before a mountain. Insurmountable. Just as she had been as a child....in that never ending loop of hell.
"No...don't...." Etrina attempted to speak. but the word were lost. Asha'rahs focus had turned to Parsics late arrival, and without her orbs to stall her advance...Chrona was approaching with her weapon. This facsimile of Chrona mirrored the worst aspects of Etrinas memory of her time here....there would be no pity to be found in her eyes.
Before...it had only taken one of them finding her to drop her chance of success to nil. Now both of them were here, and though Asha'rah went to face one...all hope was slowly evaporating from her mind even against the one opponent that remained.
Etrina took a step back, wand shaking with her hand. But Chrona was closing the distance all to quickly. Soon the time aspect would swing her sword....cut her down where she stood.
Perhaps that was for the best....this attempt was already a bit too far into unwinnable territory anyways. Though it would likely be a bit disappointing to Asha'rah....perhaps the best option at this point would be to just die and try it again.
Yes, lets just get it over with now and try again.
Die and try again
Die.....and........Try Again?
No....NoNoNoNoNoNoNoNo....
...I refuse...
"....I refuse...to die......not again...." Etrina gritted her teeth, the shaking in her hand ceasing has her knuckles went white. Chrona stepped within swinging range, lifting her weapon to strike off her head in one quick slash. It was a move she had done before, many times.
Infusing her wand with temporal magic, Etrina brought it up to parry the swing. There was a tremendous clash as the sword, a temporal weapon in itself, slide against the wand that itself was charged with potential temporal energy. Though it only held a moment, it was enough for etrina to slip in under Chronas stance, charging ki into her palm and striking the familiar in the stomach. The aspect skidded back, and though she took only a moment to resume her stance....the blow did wonders for Etrinas personal morale.
Perhaps......perhaps this fight was winnable afterall....
Perhaps...
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At that moment, a blinding light distracted both Etrina and Chrona.
Asha'rahs light of creation flared up around him....and inside the emptiness behind parsic the same light grew brilliantly amiss the light sucking void.
"......god of creation......." Parsic tilted her head, her golden eyes shining like beacons even in the backdrop of creations light. ".....That light..........yes.....it fills me up........just like before.....so long before..."
The golden haired aspect walked forth to meet Asha'rah in the middle, her void putting pressure against Asha'rahs creation. ".....I was whole.....complete......yet you.....you violated my unity with tumors....creation....matter.........can I destroy you? Can I? Can I violate your creation...just like you violated my emptiness?"